Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Beautiful Love-Handles

So I have been thinking about this blog for about a week now. This is something that has been on my heart and I just need to share it. Now I know I probably have a ton of male readers (hint on a little bit of sarcasm), but this one is for the LADIESSSSS.


I got to thinking the other day, "Why do we let society tell us what is beautiful and what is not beautiful?" When was it decided that being a size 0 or a 2 was desirable? When was it decided that fat was disgusting? Why do we all have to look the same and why do we struggle when we don't?

I struggle with this. I have the greatest husband, because not only does he let me cry about "being fat" he then comes back after I've had my pity party and says I am not, I am beautiful, and he loves the way I look. Talk about brownie points! But seriously, he is genuine when he says these things, and he's not saying them because he feels obligated because now he's married to me and has to deal with my insecurites. No. He realizes that one) I am beautiful the way I am. two) he doesn't see me the way the world tells me I should look. He doesn't have the lens of the world on when he looks at me, he sees me through loving eye (sorry for the cheese). three) I am my own person. He loves my originality. I don't look like everyone else and THAT IS A GOOD THING.

Greatest husband of the year, right??

On a spiritual side, God thinks I'm beautiful too. The Bible is filled with thoughts on how God sees all his children. We are fearfully and wonderfully made (Ps 139). Beauty is fleeting but a woman who fears the Lord is AWESOME (Prov 31 Vivian Version). Man looks at the outside the Lord looks at the HEART (1 Sam 16). I am beautiful, there is no flaw in me (SOS 4). THE KING IS ENTRALLED BY MY BEAUTY (Ps 45). Should I keep going. It's encouraging to know that the book of life, which is breathed by and thought of by the Maker of the Heavens thinks I am good looking. and more that that, He's concerned with matter of my heart, not my pants size.

Think about it. Remember in High School when the hottest guy in school was an absolute jerk, how attractive was he then? Not very. Kinda gross actually, and the nice sweet sensitive friend always got better looking because his heart was in the right place. BINGO.

Anywho sometimes KNOWING  that God thinks I'm beautiful and KNOWING  that Zane thinks I'm beautiful, doesn't do crap if I don't believe it myself. Because as a woman, I can know and believe that everything God says about me is true, and I can believe HE thinks that, but if I can also think that I am not beautiful. If you aren't a woman, you won't understand this.

I was reading an article the other day, which is kinda how my thoughts got started on this topic. Raven Symone (That's So Raven) has lost a bunch of weight. Now everyone is taking pictures of her, interviewing her, complementing her and whatnot. In an interview they asked her why she lost all this weight, her answer "the pressure of society" wow. Then someone in the same interview commented her and said "You look beautiful." Her response, "I've ALWAYS been beautiful, now I'm just thin." WHAT A STATEMENT. Which got me thinking. Why do you "look great" after you've lost 10 lbs.. That's frustrating.

This has made me appreciate my love handles :) I am beautiful. Running is nice to be healthy. And losing weight is not a bad thing, but I am beautiful. I have always been beautiful. My love handles are beautiful. My stretch marks are beautiful. And even if I lose 15 lbs, I know right now in this moment, I am beautiful. Not only because I think so, but because I know God thinks so, and I have a supportive husband who thinks so. Who cares about Society.


Those are my thoughts for the day,
Until Next Time,

Belle

Friday, May 31, 2013

My God, He is Faithful

I shouldn't have to apologize for not being super faithful with writing this thing. Nothing special happens in the Burg. But some special stuff does occur every once in a while and makes me want to share. Especially the reasons in where God shows up and shows off. He is good isn't He. I can give you a bit of backstory. Please don't take this as a cry for help, or attention. This story is about how faithful God is, and how at a moment's notice, He can come and move in your heart and give you that supernatural peace, we all long for.


Here's the story:

I had a bad day yesterday. By all means it should have been fantastic. I had the day off from work, got new glasses, and had a fantastic run. But the Enemy is the destroyer of all things good and pure and wonderful. He whispers to the insecurities and has a way with words that is disgusting if you sit and think about it. So having a day. Feeling lonely, unwanted, unappreciated. Pretty much all the negative emotions a person can have. Zane left to go hang out with some guy friends and I was at home alone with the two babies (Tobias and Eloise). I went for a run, turned on Pandora, and worshiped as I ran, which is the reason I think I could have finished 3 mi and felt like I could have kept going. I finished my run with Highlands "Arise". Truly a wonderful worship song. Ate some dinner, still alone, Zane came home, we went to bed. I cried because I realized my feelings had been hurt all day, so I asked Zane if I could turn on the lamp. Mind you it's super close to midnight. But God can still speak to you when it's past your bed time, you're hurting, and need some love. Dumb on my part was waiting until midnight, but it was still a sweet embrace from my Lord, and perfect timing on His part, like always.

I went and grabbed my Bible. A verse popped into my head "If you seek me, you will find me, when you seek me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:13. Well here goes nothing. Seeking Daddy, hoping I will find Him, because my weak self NEEDS HIM.

I didn't even know where to start so I just did my daily reading that I forgot to read that day. Saul becomes King. Other Saul who becomes Paul goes to Jail, saves someone, hero. Then the beautiful psalms. I read Psalm 84. Here it is, because I can not do it justice.

Psalm 84For the choir director; on the gittith; a psalm by Korah’s descendants. 



Your dwelling place is lovely, O Lord of Armies
My soul longs and yearns
    for the Lord’s courtyards.
    My whole body shouts for joy to the living God. 
 and swallows find a nest for themselves    
            There they hatch their young
                   near your altars, O Lord of Armies,
    my king and my God.
Blessed are those who live in your house.
    They are always praising you. Selah
Blessed are those who find strength in you.
    Their hearts are on the road that leads to you.[a]        
they make it a place of springs.
                The early rains cover it with blessings.[c]
Their strength grows as they go along
    until each one of them appears
    in front of God in Zion.

Lord God, commander of armies, hear my prayer.
    Open your ears, O God of Jacob. Selah
Look at our shield, O God.
    Look with favor on the face of your anointed one.
One day in your courtyards is better than a thousand anywhere else.
    I would rather stand in the entrance to my God’s house
    than live inside wicked people’s homes.
The Lord God is a sun and shield.
    The Lord grants favor and honor.
    He does not hold back any blessing
    from those who live innocently.
Lord of Armies, blessed is the person who trusts you.

Seriously. How wonderful is this passage. And if that doesn't do it, Revelation is the end of my reading for my daily readings. Let's be honest, I wasn't really expecting something to soothe me from Revelation. Mostly gloom and doom and heartbreak for my generation. What I got, I loved and fell asleep peacefully knowing that God cares about me. My future is bright with Him. He longs to love me and take care of me. He's my absolute best friend, running partner, lover, father, comforter, peace, hope, everything. 

13 One of the leaders asked me, “Who are these people wearing white robes, and where did they come from?”
14 I answered him, “Sir, you know.”
Then he told me,

“These are the people who are coming out of the terrible suffering.
    They have washed their robes
        and made them white in the blood of the lamb.
15  That is why they are in front of the throne of God.
    They serve him day and night in his temple.
        The one who sits on the throne will spread his tent over them.
16  They will never be hungry or thirsty again.
    Neither the sun nor any burning heat will ever overcome them.
17  The lamb in the center near the throne will be their shepherd.
    He will lead them to springs filled with the water of life,
        and God will wipe every tear from their eyes.”

God did that for me last night! He wiped my tears from my eyes. He loved me. he covers me. I wasn't thirsty or hungry for the things of this world, Just more of Jesus. The best part is he is willing to do that for you too. Not just when you're sad, unhappy, mad, anything, but when you are happy, filled with joy. He longs to be my Best Friend. and he is! and I am glad I will worship for all Eternity! Jesus is so good. 

"13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:13

For the word of the Lord is right and true; he is faithful in all he does.


And that, my friends, is where I will leave you. Hopefully encouraging you to seek the Lord, because he is faithful in all he does. He will come and rescue you and love you and hold you. 

And He is my God, and He is faithful.


Until Next time,

Belle





                                                                                                            

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Here's a thought

I haven't blogged in a while, and you will have to excuse me for that, because well going into this my intentions were good, but I'm just bad at this. So up to date on the Franklins.

- We love our Small group. Our friends are so fun :)
- Zane's Birthday was a success! I got him his presents and we had some people over for pizza coke and quelf! It was fun!!
- Alabama was fun! We spent a lot of money, mostly on food. EeEEEP! We saw as many people as we possibly could and it was wonderful. I was homesick for a little while after.
- I'm blonde (ish)
- Zane is close to being done with his first year of grad school!
- We are getting a kitten!!! We are deciding between the names Eloise ( my favorite I think) and Mollie!
- Tobias is doing good :) Snuggly as ever.

I've just been having some thoughts recently. Mostly in response to culture. Now I'm not here to throw my opinions in your face, be all political. It's just a thought.


As a Christian, I believe the world looks to us to see how we react to, um what's the word, stunning news. And as American christians we come up short about 95% of the time. I'm almost embarrassed to say that I love Jesus, because of the horrific responses to this Jay Collins news. SO WHAT? He's gay? Honestly, I believe Jesus would be disappointed with the responses from "christians". Who did Jesus hang out with? Thieves. Adulterers. The lowly. The unwanted. The unaccepted. Who did Jesus use? Thieves. Adulterers. MURDERERS. Who are you to judge people also labeled as this, or as society says. In modern days who do you think Jesus would hang out with? You know who I think? The lonely. The abortion doctor. The lawyer who's mission in life is to rid you of your money. He chose me when I was at my worst. Something I didn't deserve. "This is how we know love: Christ died for us while we were still sinners." Romans 5:8.



Anywho. Speaking of Jesus. He's been so good to me lately.


Sorry it's all over the place. It's been a crazy week!


V

Thursday, April 4, 2013

A Hunter Hays Kinda Thought

So I have not been a very good wife lately. As a married woman, who loves Jesus, I need to be better. I need to not get angry when there are dishes that need to be done, and I haven't seen Zane all day, and I've been working nonstop and I'm exhausted. Anywho, side note, when I don't have gas, I just take Zane's car, and I just listen to the radio instead of my iPod in Zane's car. Well I couldn't find anything on my 20 min car ride home so I just left it on the first station that had music. Well it was country. Bleh, but I wanted something to keep the silence from taking over.

It was a Hunter Hays song, Somebody's Heartbreak. There was a line that stuck out to me, and it completely changed my attitude towards my marriage. Well more like my frustrations. The line was "one minute with you is better than two minutes without you." Mind you, the rest of the song is trash, for real. But it resinated with me. 1 minute with Zane is absolutely worth it, more than the 2 minutes I am working or whatever. So my washing the dishes with Zane in the kitchen is now fun, because Zane is with me :). On top of that, I feel as if I am fulfilling my calling as a wife. Yay, for purpose!! Because 1 minute with Zane is better than 2 minutes without him. Goodness I love this man.


But now, thanks to the random snow in April(??????) Zane and I have had dinner and gotten to spend so much time watching a mediocre tv show. :)



Until next time,
Vivian

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Easter thoughts and Wedding pictures :)

Hi all,

The Franklin's first Easter was one for the books. Definitely 10 years from now, we will be laughing at how we celebrated this. We went to church, so sweet, and then, wait for it, BUFFALO WILD WINGS. Haha, Easter lunch of champions.  But the cool part was, we got to spend time with people who have become like family to us. It was special to celebrate Easter with our small group, having dinner and talking about Jesus the whole night. I mean Jesus is the Reason for Easter. Reflecting on his glorious day, which was not glorious for him at all.

I was just thinking about Jesus and how wonderful he was. He was and is the most selfless man, who took my burdens, my sin, my shame, just so that I could have the choice to know His Father. Wow I am so undeserving of a love like that. Then I think of calvary. The grace that Jesus gave ON THE CROSS astounds me. There are two criminals, who by all means of justice, DESERVED what was happening to them. And then in a moment of an experience with Christ, watching Him still give glory to the Father, and forgiving the people who put him on the cross undeservingly, a choice was made, in what I believe was humility. The criminal and looked to Jesus and said "Remember me when you enter your Kingdom." and Jesus, in all his wonderfulness and greatness replies, "Today, you will join me in PARADISE." I think that is just a wonderful expression of how He loves us and forgives us and desires to be with us. Jesus is experiencing the most horrific death, and turns to a man who is deserving of this death, and forgives him and offers him into paradise. I'm curious about what is going through this man's head, going through the guards head who are watching this exchange happen. What's going through Mary's head as she watches Jesus forgive a criminal the way he no longer condemned her after being caught in Adultery. He is CONSTANT. Wow, what a Savior. he is wonderful, and I am in awe of Him!!

Praise be to the Father, who forgives my sins. He loves me, but the cool this is he LIKES me. :) He is absolutely my best friend, lover of my soul, constant, everything.







In a completely different way, Here are a few of my favorite wedding pictures :)

































Maybe more later!

Love,
Vivian

Thursday, March 28, 2013

A Little Bit of Sunday and Wednesday

Hi everyone.

It's kinda been awhile and I realized I haven't updated anything lately. Mostly because nothing super crazy has happened. Well my sister in law told me to keep the updates coming! So this is for you, Jessi!


Wellllll , we are LOVING our small group. The couples have been so wonderful and inviting. Zane is currently out with all the guys//husbands at a movie and something else I guess. I'm making dinner for small group and watching Bones.

Last week was Zane's Spring Break, which means all of Tech had spring break as well which means I worked way overtime last week. It was a double catch, I was very thankful to work more hours but working more when Zane was at home was frustrating. It's sometimes hard to find little moments to spend time with him, but when we find them, boy do we grab hold of them!!

Kitty T is sitting in my lap while I write this.

We met with the pastor of the church we decided to call home here. It was so interesting. First I thought it was interesting that he would meet with someone new. He was nice. The most interesting part to me was seeing the international need Blacksburg has. He was saying that there is a huge women//wives of the the international students. Hello right up my alley. It got me really excited. They also do this thing where in the summer they gather up as much furniture and stock it in a basement of the BCM, and then on one day all the international students come and claim FREE furniture and they deliver it to their apartments and move it in. Zane was all enthused about that. Then later that night, the students come back for an "American" meal. Zane was saying that he really wanted to do that.


I should let everyone know that I am finishing this like 3 days after I started. I am such a procrastinator. We also went to a bonfire with our small group friends the weekend of Tech's break. It is so nice to be invited to places. :) Other than that, not much has gone on.

Jesus is the same yesterday today and forever. I keep reminding myself that and also "Love people, hate the devil." I think it's hard for this society to really fully do that and keep in mind that our enemy is NOT people, but the devil. Also I love America and freedom of speech, so here's my tidbit. When did Facebook become so Political. It's stupid. Also people are set in their ways. A Facebook photo is not going to change the minds of the ultra conservatives or ultra liberals, it mostly just pisses people off and makes them angry and fights break out, and if you are posting them then you are contributing to that. But then again I think, I like posting my bible verses, and I hope it encourages someone, but some of my friends who don't like Jesus at all could be offended by that. I'm not going to stop posting something that is encouraging or blows my mind in a godly fashion. Here's another thought, if you don't like what someone is posting, stop following them, or unsubscribe or whatever it is from Facebook. I'm not trying to be a bossy pants right now, but if you're really that offended, just protect yourself from angry and judgement and stop following them. Who cares if your Friend count goes down. This is getting extremely political for me. So sorry. But it's relevant.

I've been thinking about future stuff:
1) why won't people stop asking me if we are having a family anytime soon. we're not. We've been married almost 3 months. Just. STOP.
2) I am thinking about college again mostly because my degree is hard to find something in and I realized I was so far into it, that it would have taken me longer to graduate if I had to start all the way over.
Here's what I am thinking:
- Nursing
or
-Social Work

They both are exciting and I could interact with people and serve them and love them! Social work could go along with adoption and helping with Human traffiking. Of course I can't do it now, because 2 married people in school would be difficult especially if we aren't permanent anywhere quite yet. I'm in no rush.

WE ARE COMING TO ALABAMA!!!!
The weekend of April 19-21. We plan to make it down to BHAM late Thursday night and do BHAM all day Friday. Then drive to Dothan Friday night and spend time in Dothan until Saturday, and then maybe Saturday night drive to Auburn and then go to church on Sunday before driving home. We want to see as many people as possible. I'm excited to see all my friends. and family!

Um it's been snowing. Sunday/Monday we got about 5 inches. Everyone here is sick of it, but I LOVE IT!

I'm trying to think of anything else. Nope ;)

I promise I will try to be better. PROMISE.

Peace n Blessings.
Vivian

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Long Time Coming

This post has been a long time coming. Can I clear something up?? I AM NOT SAD. I love Virginia, I love my job, I am happy here. Would you like an update? Because that is what this post is about.

I love my job. I have the best classes. The moms of some of the girls I teach are wonderful, I feel like they are my buddies! Yay buddies :) One of the moms said that they were all rallying behind me to make me feel as comfortable as possible! What great women! I should make them cookies or something.

We are liking our small group more and more every week. They are a great group of couples :).

I have been deathly ill this week. Zane was wonderful and took care of me :). I'm back on my feet, working, and should start cleaning.

My apartment has gone to the DAWGS from being sick. Zane has been a super hero in the Engineering department. He's being crazy awesome and wonderfully smart :) I love him! I thought about taking a picture of my kitchen for you guys, buttttttttt I'd hate for that to make the internet.

Our wedding pictures came in! It's been fun! I can't wait to start printing them out and putting them up!! I did get a cd of the pictures stuck in my computer, but Batman complete dissembled and reassembled my computer. CAN YOU SAY HOTTTTT?

What else? Not much. Tobias finally likes me, I think. One only knows a little with cats.. Meow.. I'm feeling crafty and want to dye my hair so I'll end this short post. Sorry it's not long, and not informative. Not much crazyness has happenend, but I am happy :) I'm loving life.

Until something dramatic happens or a completely deep thought occurs ;),
V